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Byron is not afraid of heights appearantly by kelpiehunterkai Byron is not afraid of heights appearantly :iconkelpiehunterkai:kelpiehunterkai 4 1 CM - Koga and Kira by Do-El CM - Koga and Kira :icondo-el:Do-El 36 4 Tashka - Throw it all away by kelpiehunterkai Tashka - Throw it all away :iconkelpiehunterkai:kelpiehunterkai 4 3
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Minions by jbailuk
Penguins by jbailuk Jack Skellington by PerlerPixie In My Pocket ! by zomgO3O
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Falling WIP by RuuRuu-Chan Falling WIP :iconruuruu-chan:RuuRuu-Chan 21 16 ce:  winter fun by Unlovedneko-chan94 ce: winter fun :iconunlovedneko-chan94:Unlovedneko-chan94 15 19 Boop-Oop-a-Doop by JupiterBlossem Boop-Oop-a-Doop :iconjupiterblossem:JupiterBlossem 44 10 Inuyasha by Phantomheero Inuyasha :iconphantomheero:Phantomheero 8 4 Merely a Trifle by kelpiehunterkai Merely a Trifle :iconkelpiehunterkai:kelpiehunterkai 7 36 Practice Animation by RuuRuu-Chan Practice Animation :iconruuruu-chan:RuuRuu-Chan 31 16 Kirara by sesshomarusama33 Kirara :iconsesshomarusama33:sesshomarusama33 6 1 Zhiyu- Art Trade by KureKawa Zhiyu- Art Trade :iconkurekawa:KureKawa 4 1 +You are the One+ by larienne +You are the One+ :iconlarienne:larienne 3,410 214 Valentine by kelpiehunterkai Valentine :iconkelpiehunterkai:kelpiehunterkai 6 1


Shading,background,color all of it looks absolutely gorgeous! Detail is truly obvious here. Great art job. Love the green and the flowe...

by Chuchy5

I find the color choices to be right on the target. I love Beetle juice myself and you made this look very awesome and it totally bring...


Tree Lounging
:iconYuraofthehairFan: 's prize back from the winter contest I had in my group. :) Drawing of Yura in a tree holding a skull. I hope you like! :)
Julia Black
Sorry this is so late!!!! This is Julia Black my drawing for :iconunlovedneko_chan94-daqm7wl:
Reflection of Actions
By Jessica Bailuk
January 25th 2017.

Words expressed can sometimes cause more harm,
Then one can actually realize.
Hurting someone to the point one doesn't even care,
about the effect their actions have brought.
Doesn't make it alright,
Nor fixes the problem at hand.
Refuse to be a punching bag,
To have emotionally frustrations brought upon.
Don't deserve that kind of treatment,
It is always two ways.
Not all one person's fault,
Refusing responsibility of actions is considered not right.

I refuse to be taken down,
Not ready to crash down and crumble.
I am a woman,
I will stand up for the things I believe in.
Even though I want nothing more then for things to be alright,
I know what I deserve and what I don't.

Like looking in a mirror,
I see what my life reflects.
What shape my heart longs to be,
As a whole person or not.
I choose whole,
Rather be doing things good for me.
That'll make me happy,
To not look back ever with regret.

I see myself strong emotionally at times.
But even I weaken,
Even I fall ill.
No matter what that comes at me.
I refuse to let go of that.
Because I'll always think of what my life will reflect on,
Even though I won't be looking at a mirror.
Reflection of Actions
Poem on how I'm feeling due to being emotionally treated by someone I thought was my friend. So this poem is to motivate me and lend me strength to push passed it. I felt expressing it helped tremendeously.
My entry for the :iconyurafanclub: contest.

Yura's all ready for New Years' Eve. She's even got a lovely pretty Chinese/Japanese parasol to flaunt off. And boy is she glittery :D Idk why I just see a lot of that during each year for New Year's Eve/Day :P hehehehe. 
Katyra & Wyv. Katyra is holding Freedom, with Chou & Tashka in front of her and Wyv. Katyra's pregnant with Wyv's baby OOC wise in this. Decided to make it Christmas' colored clothes :D hehe.

You know it's very heart breaking. I had a great week and weekend up until yesterday simply due to the fact I had no choice but to be harsh to my ex (my daughter's father). All my daughter wants is once a week calls with her own father. Whom to her is a stranger because he couldn't be bothered to even attempt to try for 8 years to see her, speak to her etc. He claims he regrets it. He's only seen her once, which was the first time in 8 almost 9 years in August. She made strange with him, met her sister (half sister) which she handled better and accepted was happy she's got a sister,etc.

Then she got like one time skype call with them before September before she saw her father and sister again. Where she met her granny (her dads mom) she hadn't seen since she was 1 years old. Same with her grandpa. She made strange with them too considering they didn't try at all to try to be in her life.

After that she was lucky enough to get once every few months to hear from him. I don't feel this is right nor that my child is her own father's priority. Family should be more then friends. Also okay I get his wife is 'sickly' I get his parent's health sucks and his daughter supposedly gets colds here and there. But all my daughter wants is 30mins once a week time with her own dad...whom she won't even call dad. She calls him awkwardly by his first name. Whenever he says he loves her she gets really akward and says nothing.

It just breaks my heart. I've tried my hardest to encourage a relationship between them but I'm so tired of trying to force it, or make the effort. So I got harsh on Facebook message with him last night. I felt it was my right considering my daughter's been really hurt by him, by him not even trying etc. He claims his wife won't let him, claims he's soooo busy. One is never too busy for their family or kids if they chose not to be busy. I'm sick a lot and yet I still make time to speak to my family, my friends. I make time and effort for her dad to speak to my child.

This is what's really the saddest. His wife verbally attacks me when me and him tried talking it out in voice call accusing me of 'being rude' and 'being out of line'. I wasn't rude. I wasn't out of line. Then she's yelling like a psycho saying 'how dare I threaten him'. Which I didn't. She claimed I was threatening ending communication again which I wasn't. I simply said I don't want to have to see him missing out on being in my child's life and I'm tired of having to force him to have a relationship with her or make time with her. THEN his mom gets on the call and says how I have no right and how good of a father my ex is, and how busy he is and how he doesn't have time for my child his child. And how he has to take care of his sickly wife and his daughter and how he has so much to stress about and how my child and I should respect and understand that he doesn't have time to even once a week speak to her and that we just have to deal with it! Oh she also said I dumped my daughter on him when he wanted to have a relationship with her. And called her trash to my face and my daughter's whose 9 almost 10 years old over Skype which made her every upset and sad enough that my daughter threatened screaming because of how nasty 'granny' was being...:/

She was getting even worse and ended up insulting my child because my daughter was upset saying my daughter wouldn't even hug her when she last saw her and I said yeah because you refused to be in her life for so many years your stranger to her and she wasn't ready to hug you by not feeling comfortable! Then she had the nerve to argue how I left my ex and it's all my fault and I said no it's not my fault you drove me away with abusing me verbally and treating me like trash and how this has nothing to do with me and him but him and his daughter being in one another's lives and how I do understand his situation however he still needs to make his kid a priority regardless! Needless to say I hung up on his mother and I told him I don't approve nor appreciate being talked that way or how she treated and severely upsetted my child. And I also told him based on how she acted that my daughter won't be speaking to her or seeing her ever again that his mother isn't allowed seeing her or communicating with her until she can act maturely.

She's said worse things to her other granddaughter 9 yrs ago saying how her mother was a whore,etc THIS is not acceptable to a child or being treated in that way. It's abuse no matter what. I'm sorry but if my own mother did that to my child who wasn't living with me she'd be told once it stops or she's out of my life. Difference is my mom is respectful and kind and not a mean cruel person like his mother is.

Also if I were married my husband would be told to accept and respect it. My ex's wife won't even let my daughter speak to her own father or her own sister once a week. She gets extremely jealous and throws a tantrum from what I've heard. I've had to resort to blocking his wife because frankly...

It's not up to her! I get being upset say if one wasn't told their hubby had another child before they married etc. That's within good reason and understanding. But I don't agree with thinking it's ever okay to pretend your own kid isn't important and doesn't exist. It's bad parenting, it's lack of priority. My daughter is my #1 priority.

Sorry for the daughter's really upset over this as am I. I needed to vent. Will delete this later.


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Jessica Bailuk
Artist | Hobbyist | Varied
Age 33 I've been drawing since I was 7. Painting since I was 20.
Sculpting now for under a year. :)
Current Residence: Vancouver, British Columbia, Canada.
Favourite genre of music: Country/Hip Hop/Rock, etc
Favourite style of art: Drawings and paintings.

Operating System: Pencil crayons, paintshop pro, etc.
MP3 player of choice: N/A
Shell of choice: N/A
Wallpaper of choice: N/A
Skin of choice: N/A
Favourite cartoon character: Betty Boop & Betty Cooper.
Personal Quote: "With the sort of imagination I can muster up comes something different"



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RavTheHedgehog Featured By Owner May 13, 2016  Student Digital Artist
Happy Birthday, it's okay o/
jbailuk Featured By Owner Aug 11, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
thank you sorry haven't seen this sooner.
RavTheHedgehog Featured By Owner May 13, 2014  Student Digital Artist
Happy Birthday.
jbailuk Featured By Owner May 13, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you :)
RavTheHedgehog Featured By Owner May 13, 2014  Student Digital Artist
you're welcome.
jbailuk Featured By Owner May 16, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
00kaorin00 Featured By Owner Dec 29, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
You've been hugged. Huggle!

Spread the DA love around! (you can copy and paste this message on their userpage!)

1- You can hug the person who hugged you!
2- You -MUST- hug 6 other people, at least!
3- You should hug them in public! Paste it on their user page!
4- Random hugs are perfectly okay! (and sweet)
5- You should most definitely get started hugging right away!

Send this to all your friends (and me if I am one)
Chelcat Featured By Owner Dec 21, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Oh my gosh, thank you so much for the 3 months membership Jess! It means so much to me! ^^ :hug: As promised, I'd like to draw a commission-grade picture for you in return! Would you like anything in particular? :meow:
jbailuk Featured By Owner Dec 21, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
could you draw a black cat for me? :) And your welcome wanted it to be like an Xmas gift for you too in a sense ^ ^
Chelcat Featured By Owner Dec 22, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Realistic? Or my cartoon style? Feral/Antrho? Eye-colour? :meow: Cats are my speciality. XD
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